I have not written since August. I started a new position then and have been overwhelmed with all of the
horrible wonderful new things that come with that. But it's a new year and one of my resolutions is to keep up with this blog. I am going to try to post here at least 3 times a week. So with that being said, here is my first post of 2011.
Every year I make at least one New Year's Resolution. Three years ago I told people that my resolution was to gain 20 pounds since I knew that was one I could keep! Almost every year, I committ to living in the moment and trying to be more present focused. It's on my list again this year. I expect that one to be thrown out the window by 8:00 Monday morning.
One resolution that I intend to keep this year is to enjoy being a mother more. I know that some of you who know me may be saying to yourselves, "What!? You always seem like you're loving every minute of it!" And I do enjoy it most of the time but lately I have found myself complaining a lot. Maybe not to any of you, but inside my own head. I have gotten hung up on how exhausted I am all the time and on counting the minutes until naptime or bedtime when I can have 5 uninterrupted minutes to myself. I have even resorted to locking myself in the bathroom when Rick comes home and pretending that I have to go so that I can have some peace for a few minutes. All of this is very sad to me.
I have two gorgeous daughters who are healthy, smart, and happy. I know many mothers who cannot say this but still seem to enjoy being a mom. I know moms who have children with Down's Syndrome, autism, or developmental delays. What I notice in many of these warrior moms is that they have learned to appreciate all of the small successes and joys that a lot of us take for granted.
I have resolved this year that I am going to stop wishing for a nap every five
Happy New Year!